i made a meal plan for the week.
and i really, really need to stick to it. i even worked in my absolute favorite meal on the weekends, to give myself something to look forward to so i don’t slip up during the week.
planning helped me so much last time, i just need to get back into the habit of following them.
2.13
honey oat veggie sub | 705 calories.
meal bar | 170 calories.
a few breadsticks | 400 calories.
total | 1275
i hate myself. i can’t believe i ate so much and was still so hungry the entire day. what was the fucking point.
2.12
a bagel with eggs. probably 400-500 calories.
some candy. maybe 200 calories.
rice and tofu for dinner; purged almost everything. probably less than 200 calories.
worst case scenario: around 900 calories, plus a lot of walking and exercise.
i feel like fucking shit, but i guess in retrospect, my horrible choices didn’t completely ruin everything.
12.7
binge. purge. binge. purge. binge. purge.
pretty sure i wasn’t too far over my bmr for the day, though, if at all. and i just reminded myself that i have an entire month when no one will see me to get to my goal weight, which is only like 7lbs away at this point.
fuck it.
12.5
egg white omelet | 125 calories.
grapes | 70 calories.
butterscotch chocolate chips (purged).
some homemade pretzels.
12.4
granola bar | 200 calories.
buttered rice cake | 35 calories.
misc | 100 calories.
total | 335 calories.
lol hit my daily post limit so i’m just editing another post into this.
binged and purged. a ton. i know i got almost everything out (i rinsed and repeated with water a few times) but i need to remind myself to stick to the foods i’m used to and not try new things. my everything hurts and i’m not sure exactly how many calories this is for the day but i’m exhausted so whatever.
and then after all that i realized i had no more food in my room for like, one last little healthy meal, so now i’m eating shit from the vending machine and frowning. w/e.
12.3
egg whites (12x) | 204 calories.
cream cheese wedge (2x) | 70 calories.
green beans | 70 calories.
some white chocolate | ~300 calories.
total | ~644 calories.
i ended up eating some white chocolate
boo hoo
on the whole the day was pretty lousy but i didn’t go over maintenance calories even with a mini-binge so i’ll count it as not a complete failure
12.2
egg whites (8x) | 136 calories.
cream cheese wedge | 35 calories.
exercise | -200 calories.
total | -29 calories.
i wanted to fast today, but i thought i was going to pass out this morning when it was the only time this week i was getting to hang out with my mom.
she made me eat a burrito too but i pretty much purged all of it.
i’m skipping dinner and i feel really great. hopefully i’ll have lost weight by the morning!
12.1
coke zero | 0 calories.
green tea | 0 calories.
orbit gum | 32 calories.
exercise | -140 calories.
total | -140 calories.
i hit my daily post limit yesterday so i couldn’t post this, but there you go~
i ended up losing a pound. so that’s really nice!!! i feel good.
